Monday, September 21, 2009
A New Day...
Today is Monday, September 21, 2009. The sun is shining and a squirrel is in the bird feeder. I haven't seen the little injured one in two days. The Cardinals have been here and since left this morning. It is a new day....
Hubby left last night, the two boys went to their sister's house to spend the night. Sister's hubby has a four wheeler that he just finished getting "ready", for what I am unsure. The one thing that I am sure of, the clothes that they bring home will be full of mud.
When it came time for hubby to leave, I had told myself no tears, he doesn't want to go and he feels bad enough about having to contract. No need to make him feel any worse with a seven hour drive ahead of him, not to mention the weather was terrible, he was heading right into it. He needed to be focused on driving and not home.
I was good, no tears, he closed the front door. Breathe..... When I heard the truck start, well all was not good any longer. I watched him through the bedroom window, drive out the gates and then close them. I watched the tail lights until they were out of my sight. Thirty days...... and then to get two days to do it again.
As I sat alone in a very quiet house, I asked myself, will this get easier next time? Then I asked myself do you really want it to be easier? If it got easier, wouldn't that mean that I was losing something that I really loved and cared about? No, I don't want to lose those feelings, no matter how hard they seem to be right this minute.
This is the tote that was inspired by my daughter, with one large pocket inside for her keys and cell phone, "So they don't go to the bottom, I can just reach into the pocket." OK. Hers is finished and I made another one in the Halloween theme with a handmade clay pumpkin button. I will get it listed today in my Etsy shop.
Colors for the week:
I hope that everyone has a Blessed Mabon tomorrow!
Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live today! ~Brightest Blessings~