Today is October 30, 2011. It was a beautiful Fall day here! The sun was warm and the air was breezy and cool. A day that makes you want to be outside, I mean really want to be.
I am not sure I know where to start it has been I think about a month since the last post. Much, much to long and there are no excuses.
Everyone is still living at home let me say that first. I feel like I have stepped back in time and raising three more little ones again. Not sure how it happened, however it has right down to the teacher conferences. These are the cup cakes I made for the Fall Festival at their school. Their grades have came up and they are happy children. We went to the library three weeks ago and got every body their own library cards. My kids loved to go to the library once a week. So now we go once a week either on Saturday or on Tuesday. They love it and are reading! This thrills me being a home school mom! They actually come off of those damn games and read!
I have noticed that since the weather has chilled out, hehehe, that they go outside and play old games after dinner. Hide and seek, throwing a frisbee, throwing a football or baseball back and forth. My heart just soars when they are out in the yard having fun!
I guess that I am just a little disappointed in my daughter and her husband. Neither one of them seem to interact with the kids. They don't get up with them in the morning to get them ready for school or take them, I do. They don't even cook or do their laundry. But that's okay, they give me truly a reason to get this butt out of bed in the morning and they are so grateful what I do for them.
Any way I had to have a CT PET Scan a few weeks ago and I am still cancer free! Whoot! Doing the happy dance I was! Don't get me wrong, to be honest with you, I don't really think about cancer until the week of a scan. Then out of the blue I start to think about it and what if. Do I have bad days, of course I do. Shoot, there was one night that I cried myself to sleep and honestly I don't know why. My ear still has fluid behind it but I will or George will be calling his office in a few days because my 90 day wait will be up for him to do something about it, "I like to wait three months before I do anything.". Well I almost lost my mind from not being able to hear right and that water in your ear feeling, but my wait if almost over!
My hair has started to grow back on the back of my head from where they nuked it and my arm doesn't look like a ham hawk. It is filling out nicely, almost looks the same size as my left one. I will have to take a picture of it and share. My stoma has healed, but I still have so many questions that are unanswered. I have been trying to teach myself esophageal speech, it's going okay, not as fast as I had hoped. The voice prosthesis really bothers me, not just the fact that it requires surgery, but the fact that they have to be changed every six months and can leak. Leaking would NOT be good for me or my lungs. I still have no sweet spot so the little electronic thing doesn't work for me. It is louder than I am so no one can hear me, even me.
I want to try to read a few blogs tonight before I hit the sack, 4:30 comes pretty early for me these days. I sure hope everyone has been doing well I have missed everyone, I truly have. My blog buddies have been a very big part of my life for a lot of years and this last year has really made me realize how much I have missed them. I still can't believe it is October, this year has truly been a blur to me and I hope that next year is a little more picture perfect.
Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live today.~Brightest Blessing~