Saturday, October 1, 2011
Worry Brings Nothing Good
Today is Saturday, October 1, 2011. We have had gorgeous just gorgeous weather the last few weeks. Yes, it has been hot, but it has been so pretty. The afternoon showers still show up, but I guess that is why everything has been so pretty and green. The last couple of days, there is Fall in the air, so much that I have been able to open up the house. Looking forward to that very much, love to open up the house.
So much has been happening......I guess that I never really gave it much thought as to how much this junk can change your life and the life of your family. Never realizing that I would be seeing the doctors every two months and sometimes more often. The last visit last week brought me to another first a CT PET Scan. Having just had a CT Scan I didn't understand why another scan. After doing some research I didn't like why I would be have this scan. So yesterday morning this is what I spent the better part of my day doing. We were supposed to have the results yesterday afternoon, however that didn't happen. No news is good news?
Three weeks ago my daughter and her family have moved back home, they have lost their home. Then came son # 5, he is also home. We have went from a household of three to nine. Her husband is out of work and she isn't getting twenty hours a week. We will make the best of this, so making lemonade.
I have always written appointments on the calender, so my daughter wanted to know why I was having another scan if everything was okay with the CT Scan. I don't know baby girl.....I don't know.
What I do know is that this has just torn me apart watching what it is doing to the members of my family. She came home from work last night, sick to her stomach. George has had this look in his eyes like someone has taken all hope from him. Young son has just hovered over me, don't care for that. The older kids calling George to see what happened.
There are things in this life that we have control over and things that we do NOT. This is something that we do not have control over. Turn it over to the universe or your God and move on. Enjoy your day and the things that you are doing the people that you are with. Worrying will not get you anything other than stomach issues and a headache.
She informed me that I was her mother the only one that she will have and started to cry. Yes little girl, I am your mother, (like I didn't know this) would you like me to find you an adoptive mother? "This shits not funny mom!", she informed me. No, no it's not. However, I am NOT going to sit around everyday wondering what if. I am going to continue to do the things that I have always done and continue to enjoy doing them.
She wanted to learn to sew, so sew we will learn. Get busy girl and start ironing that fabric and cutting squares. Busy hands are happy hands. The holidays are fast approaching at a high rate of speed and in order to make handmade items, you had better get really busy now. Can you believe that this is October already? Another year almost gone.......
If you haven't heard, after the first of the year you will no longer be able to buy the light bulbs that we currently are using. So you may want to consider stock piling them. Oh, I know that they are suppose to be "green" and so much cheaper, however when our restaurant when to these "green" bulbs that were suppose to last forever and be so much cheaper, I found out first hand that they do NOT last longer and are very expensive to buy. Not to mention I really dislike the lighting from them. Needless to say I have started my stockpile.
Well I need to get a load of laundry in and get this body dressed. Then on to cutting squares and working on some new book designs. Wishing everyone an awesome weekend, go have some fun!
Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live today. ~Brightest Blessing~