Saturday, October 1, 2011

Worry Brings Nothing Good

Today is Saturday, October 1, 2011. We have had gorgeous just gorgeous weather the last few weeks. Yes, it has been hot, but it has been so pretty. The afternoon showers still show up, but I guess that is why everything has been so pretty and green. The last couple of days, there is Fall in the air, so much that I have been able to open up the house. Looking forward to that very much, love to open up the house.

So much has been happening......I guess that I never really gave it much thought as to how much this junk can change your life and the life of your family. Never realizing that I would be seeing the doctors every two months and sometimes more often. The last visit last week brought me to another first a CT PET Scan. Having just had a CT Scan I didn't understand why another scan. After doing some research I didn't like why I would be have this scan. So yesterday morning this is what I spent the better part of my day doing. We were supposed to have the results yesterday afternoon, however that didn't happen. No news is good news?

Three weeks ago my daughter and her family have moved back home, they have lost their home. Then came son # 5, he is also home. We have went from a household of three to nine. Her husband is out of work and she isn't getting twenty hours a week. We will make the best of this, so making lemonade.

I have always written appointments on the calender, so my daughter wanted to know why I was having another scan if everything was okay with the CT Scan. I don't know baby girl.....I don't know.

What I do know is that this has just torn me apart watching what it is doing to the members of my family. She came home from work last night, sick to her stomach. George has had this look in his eyes like someone has taken all hope from him. Young son has just hovered over me, don't care for that. The older kids calling George to see what happened.

There are things in this life that we have control over and things that we do NOT. This is something that we do not have control over. Turn it over to the universe or your God and move on. Enjoy your day and the things that you are doing the people that you are with. Worrying will not get you anything other than stomach issues and a headache.

She informed me that I was her mother the only one that she will have and started to cry. Yes little girl, I am your mother, (like I didn't know this) would you like me to find you an adoptive mother? "This shits not funny mom!", she informed me. No, no it's not. However, I am NOT going to sit around everyday wondering what if. I am going to continue to do the things that I have always done and continue to enjoy doing them.

She wanted to learn to sew, so sew we will learn. Get busy girl and start ironing that fabric and cutting squares. Busy hands are happy hands. The holidays are fast approaching at a high rate of speed and in order to make handmade items, you had better get really busy now. Can you believe that this is October already? Another year almost gone.......

If you haven't heard, after the first of the year you will no longer be able to buy the light bulbs that we currently are using. So you may want to consider stock piling them. Oh, I know that they are suppose to be "green" and so much cheaper, however when our restaurant when to these "green" bulbs that were suppose to last forever and be so much cheaper, I found out first hand that they do NOT last longer and are very expensive to buy. Not to mention I really dislike the lighting from them. Needless to say I have started my stockpile.

Well I need to get a load of laundry in and get this body dressed. Then on to cutting squares and working on some new book designs. Wishing everyone an awesome weekend, go have some fun!

Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live today. ~Brightest Blessing~


  1. You are my hero. I consider myself blessed the day you came into my life. I have missed you so and do apologize for not contacting you sooner, but please know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers. Time has gotten away from me.

    We've tried those light bulbs you mentioned. You are so right. They are expensive and not only do they not last, but the one we had in the bathroom shattered while taking it out, hence, adding the expense of an electrician to unscrewing a light bulb.

    Please do take care of yourself, my friend. We love you dearly.

  2. Dede - you are my hero, too. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You keep us all posted on how you are doing, and know that we're here for you. What a rough road you've been traveling. I hope that today you get some time to just be. I know you will enjoy that family of yours, for sure. Much love to you!! xox Pam

  3. too hon. I could tell you I didn't sob a bit reading the part about your daughter..but that would be a lie..I did. Sweetie..just know..we are pulling for you..sending you energy and Reiki! It has been a rough row hon! Please know I am here for you only have to email me or call. I know I have been wicked busy..but I am never too busy for you hon!
    Blessings and love, Sarah

  4. I have been where you are. CT scans, MRIs, Pet scans and more. It is scary because the doctors don't tell you ANYTHING. It is an everyday thing for them. They have too many patients and you get called when they get to you. However, I have learned that "no news is good news" If something awful turned up they would have called you right away. I know this because the first year of scans didn't show much and the call actually came two weeks later. The second year I had brain and spine masses and the call came the very next day.
    I hope this gives you some relief.
    Priorities change when this happens and with all that is going on, you will be the strong one for your family.
    A huge hug

  5. Hi Dede just wanted to say hi & let you know I'm thinking about ya! :) xo Becca oh and a huge hug too!
    Sorry blogger is being pesky again

  6. You are such a strong woman! I commend you! I know you've got a full house, but it may be a good thing, I agree, make lemonade! Life as you knew it has changed, but you've changed wit it. These are the best days...everyday! Think of you very often even though I don't reply!

    Take care


It was nice of you to take time out of your busy day to stop by. Blessings to you and your family! (((HUGS)))